In 1967, at the age of 17, I reached an impasse in my life. I was tired of the direction my life was headed in and I didn't want to go on. It was probably in June when I began crying out to God, asking Him for help. I had considered suicide and I really wanted to end it there and then. But, something always seemed to step in the way: a knock at the door, a phone call, a friend's voice. I'm glad now that I didn't take that thought to fruition.
It wasn't until July that my constant prayer was answered. I was watching a movie that moved me emotionally. I recall the moment when I cried out and asked God one last time for help, and in the twinkle of an eye, my life was transformed. I cannot explain it, but all of my worries and concerns were suddenly gone and the tremendous weight I had on my shoulders was missing, and it did not return.
It was evening time and it was dark outside, but when I walked through the front door, I was surprised. The world was suddenly alive. I remarked that the darkness of the night was far brighter than the daylight of the previous day. I saw things with such clarity, and it seemed that I was seeing life for the first time, through a new set of eyes. I wrote in my journal that I knew my name, I could recall things I had previously learned, but I was not the same person. I was somehow new -- changed -- in some way that I could not explain.
I eventually came to know that what I experienced was a spiritual rebirth, as described by Jesus Christ.
|John 3 |
If you struggle with life and sometimes think that death would be better than living, please think again. What would the world be like without having known you? What impact would your death have on the future course of events on planet earth? How many people would your sudden departure affect, not only now but way into the future?
For example, if I had succeeded in ending my life in 1967, my two daughters would never have existed. Nor would my five grandchildren or all of my great grandchildren that I have yet to meet. Not only that, but think about all the friends I've made and people I've influenced in some way since 1967.
I can assure you that if this is true for me, then it's also true for you.
Know that you are not alone in your struggles. My answer, as I believe your answer, is Jesus Christ. Since July, 1967, I have never again struggled with thoughts of suicide. Once I was spiritually reborn, things were never the same for me -- they were better.
Now, this does not mean that I have not had my struggles or that life hasn't sometimes been difficult. But, what Jesus Christ did for me in 1967, when I was 17 years old, gave me the courage and presence of mind to weather the problems of life. It gave me the resolve to keep on going when giving up would have made more sense. It made me realize that I am not a failure until I quit. If I don't quite, I cannot fail.
All you have to do is ask Jesus Christ to come into your life. He says that those who knock, the door will be open to them. Ask Him to come into your heart.
The truth is, Jesus Christ is the Son of God, and He has the power to forgive sins and give comfort. That includes all of us, for all have sinned and fallen short of what God intends for us. Where it is true that none of us deserve to see heaven on the merit of what we have done in our lives, our hope is in Jesus Christ, the second Adam. Jesus was victorious over death, the enemy, and sin.
Call on the name of Jesus Christ, believe that He is the Son of God, and you may find your life forever changed -- as I have. Praise the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Thanks for listening;
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By Alicia Colombo